Showing posts with label best friend. Show all posts
Showing posts with label best friend. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants ;)

Remember in one of my previous posts I wrote I am going farther away from everyone as each day passes by? Turns out, every problem has a quick-fix solution. Except of course if it is of the NP-Hard variety. No matter which part of the world you are in, the heart to heart connection is just a phone call away! I usually speak to Mom for about 10 mins everyday. But last night it went on for about an hour And then spoke to my sis. I think I found my best friend for life yesterday.

There was a point in life when I wouldn't share anything with her. That happened because, I once told her a couple of things and she was like,I'll go tell Mom and Dad wait! :)) Who would want to share anything with such a kid? So  from that point on, we only spoke about impersonal stuff and the gap between us widened.

Somehow yesterday we got talking and went on for a couple hours. All the biggest, darkest secrets of our lives came tumbling out. Some were shocking. Some funny. But whatever it was that we shared, both of us felt the gap close. And THAT people, is the best feeling in the whole wide world.

We're both so different in so many ways, yet we share so many common things. (Common parents for one. :P ) But on a more serious note, both of us hate it when someone we talk to, maybe just an acquaintance, goes and talks about us to others. We wouldn't do that to others. And expect the same from them.
We don't talk that much, although the degree varies- she's of the extreme variety-keeps mum most of the times whereas I only talk to certain people.

Sisters have similar tastes in clothes? Don't know, but we do. And it doesn't match with the other set of cousins that we have.

Just remembered something. I sometimes hate eating Rice. But was forced to eat it every morning. (This was when I was in the third grade and she didn't go to school yet. ) Mom wasn't looking and I put all my stuff in her plate. Paap she had to eat her stuff + mine. Some random memory. Feels nice now that I think of it. :)

On this note, listen to Evanescence. Or something else. Your wish ba! :D
P.S. : The title is the name of a movie she once loved.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Best friends? Maybe not.


So, I just got off the phone with my best friend. I've known him since about 12 years now. Right from school to now we've kept in touch. We were pretty close. Quite the opposite in disposition. I would get home from school everyday and tell him all about what happened in school. And he would just sit there listening. Never talking. Considering I am usually quiet one, you can imagine how quiet he must be. Hmm...So maybe we are not quite different after all.

So yeah we grew up. Made friends. Had crushes. I would tell him all about them. Tell him how it breaks my heart to see them in love with someone else. I remember even crying over the phone once for some other guy and he would just console me. He told me about his girl and how she lied to him.

All this while never did we have feelings for each other. I mean I cannot think of him as "my guy".

Today he calls me and says I've been thinking from sometime now, and I think I see you more than just a best friend. I was like :O!
Then he goes on to tell me about sometime where he had introduced me to one of his friends and I spoke to him more than I did with him. He was uncomfortable then, but brushed off his feelings thinking they were just best-friendish feelings. When he thought back about it recently, he thinks he was Jealous.

We recently went on a trip together. Friends and family included. I thought I saw a look in his eyes- an irritated sort of expression when I wasn't spending as much time with him. I sorta brushed it aside.
Didn't realize what was about to come.

Now it's all so weird- I mean I don't feel anything for him. Like nothing! But then thinking about how our families our close and him knowing everything about me..it probably would seem wise to say yes to him.
But then again I don't love him...I feel bad that I will be breaking his heart, coz I know exactly what it feels like when someone breaks your heart.
Strange is love.

I told him maybe he thinks this is love because he has opened up to me. Maybe he just needs to talk to other people more. (Didn't know what else to tell him)
Then he says take your time and think about it.....But I am pretty sure about what I feel for him...
How do I tell him that without breaking his heart?
Feeling weird/bad that I lost my bestie. Things will never be the same again now.
Why oh why do relationships have to be so complicated?!
Why oh why can't a girl and a guy be best friends!!!!