It is complicated!

See how people have their status messages as "It is complicated". And then you wonder, how can it be "complicated" you're either in or out of a relationship. This is one such example of complications!

This is a complex love story about P. He was the first guy she loved. He made her believe he liked her too. They were together for a while and then one day the guy decides to move on saying this is not going anywhere, let's look around and find other people.
Should have been the end of the story. But this was just Blow #1.
She tried hard to forget him, but every time she met new people she would compare and think he was so much better. And as time passed by, she began "hating" P. Hating in quotations because every time she even got a glimpse of him, she would go weak in her knees and withdraw away from him, fearing he would hurt her again.

Meanwhile he gets "committed" to another girl. And when she had opened up to him after he had assured her he will be there for her always, leaves her. Reason? The Jane was too plain for him. A few flings later P and his first girl get back together. Happily ever after? Not the case.
Both of them profess their love and he convinced her once again, that she was the only one he loved. She wasn't convinced at all, but as time passed by she gave in.
Was she stupid or what?! Or the guy was a real smooth talker. Whatever it was, they were happy for a while and then followed the usual problems.
Jealousy. Insecurity.
But on the positive side, no signs of infidelity from the guy considering his history.
They made compromises. They had fights.
Both of them had shortcomings.
And then he leaves her again. Blow #2.
And the cycle repeats.
Neither of them is over the other but they are not together.
Hence, the status " It is complicated".

Questions I have for you :  I probably have to get married soon. I don't want to be in P's situation where he leaves her and goes as per his convenience. I'm married and I realize some qualities in him are not to my taste and vice-versa. Both of us compromise. And that is how it is meant to be.
Considering you are happy with someone, and you have a few fights and make up, repeating in an infinite cycle, what is the condition to check to get out of the loop? How does one person decide "The End"?

Sadness

Guess what? I opted out of the skit. Psch. Kinda feeling bad. I really wanted to do it. But somethings you just know won't work out in the long run... And this was one of those things...

I thought there was too much that was left to do in too less time...Leaving that aside, even after a month's practice there would be no guarantee that the skit would be performed..So thought I'd rather take part in a dance which won't take as much time and which will happen for sure.

:( Still feeling bad though..I wanted to do it.......

The Art of Acting

Gahaha. Not that I have a lot of knowledge over the topic. But I am beginning to realize it is not as easy as it seems. Portraying your emotions in front of an audience and making them feel what you are feeling is a HUGE task. Trust me.
All this gyaan I'm giving out coz I just started acting in a play/skit which is a love story. How it began and continues..Your typical love story.

The first scene required me to fall into his arms and look into his eyes like I'm in love! I mean, here is a guy you don't even know, and you have to act like he's the center of your world! So many problems I had.
First thing, it's plain embarrassing.
Second, you have to do it with more than a dozen pairs of eyes watching you!
If it were in a room with only the two of you, it is somewhat fine. But otherwise it requires a lot of effort to ignore the people around you, get the feelings of each scene right and finally, have the confidence to do it in front of a group of people.
Now I know why, in movies, they prefer less people to shoot with in intimate scenes. Or why co-stars are linked. To make it look real, you have to get comfortable with each other and if you get comfortable, it would look real! So, you have your catch-22 situation right there. :)

It's been good so far. I'm doing it to explore my limits. To see what I can and can't do. And how much I like what I do.
More later!

Feel good feeling

Feeling real good today. That I can do things by myself. Feeling independent, intelligent and in love with myself. I just had a Research meeting with my Professor, and what he was talking about actually went to my head. The previous Prof I worked for, didn't make me feel this way at all. Partly it was because I never read/did what he asked me to do. And I did his work because I HAD to. And partly it was because he didn't know what he wanted me to work on in the first place.
The new Professor is a lot nicer and makes me do things until I understand them, or actually want to do them. He is a lot more precise in the direction he wants me to head and is so much more practical. It's making me WANT to learn and do things by myself. Hope this state lasts for a long time!

On a completely different topic, going to a Salsa class today. Should be fun!